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Sorry for the overly long absence.
I have been on once in a while, the longest being yesterday.
I was pretty happy to find out that I have the weekend off
I rarely get any weekend off! It is the first one in over a year!
Except, of course, in holiday or in sickness, but I mean the working year

Recently I have been having weird thoughts.
You know, being single and all is super cool and you have loads of time only for yourself or for your family, but I am yearning for somebody who can hug me, protect me, keep me safe.
Somebody I can love for what they are and who can love me equally.
I feel in need for something like that...but maybe it is just a faze and it will leave me be after a while.
If I ever get into another relationship, I want it to last, not to end like the ones I had.
There is only one problem to all that:
I am a serious coward. If somebody doesn't take over the dominant part I run like hell.
Plus...
I freeze up the instant somebody touches me, no matter how much I call out for it. I have even noticed this if one of my Cousins hug me! But I hug them all the time and nothing like that occurs...
It is so weird, so frustrating...ARGH!!! Why a I like that?!
So in other words, if somebody seriously wants to stay with me, they practically have to force me...which isn't a good basis for a relationship.

I could use some hints here...or some helpful advice.
But I am sure most of you act normal towards relationships, I am probably the big exception.
I am so strange in this subject...but my friends keep telling me it is because of my father and how he acts.
He is wimpy and selfish...maybe that is why I am looking for somebody dominant and gentle.

Seriously said...I do not know what to think...
~Angel or Campari

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FEED HER...please?:


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Adopted from squiby

Prizes

ART Development and Process:
No Star - Not Started
- Planning
- Sketched
- Inked
Scanned and Started to colour
- Finished

In association with - the one I got the Process idea from.

PICTURE COUNT - 18


+ Drawing her OC (3)
+ Drawing her OC(10)
+ Drawing her OC (14)


+ Hamtaro and Bijou (4)
+ Yotsuba&! (11)


+ Her Fox Avatar (5)


+ One of her Horses, doing whatever. (6)


+ Her Yami and Hikari (7)

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To do stuff:

1.] Poster / Art Work of Black Flame Academy for in exchange for an Icon (<-- this ain't easy!)

2.] Ref for and my character.

3.] A Gift Art for Hikari and his OC

4.] A Gift Art for Her OC and mine

5.] An Art Trade with my chara San and her chara Ayane

6.]Art Trade with His Pokemon OC Hayato and himself Flavio doing a training routine.

7] Art Trade with She wants all three Legendary Bird Pokemon to fight against Lugia.

8] Art for - Incommodo (laughing), San (laughing) and Yunei (glaring)

9] Request from - Battle scene between his Leafeon and my Jolteon (Spark) headbutting each other. - Inked

10] Other Contests possible, tell me if you are hosting one I have already answered too, then I might be able to say yes or no clearly.
Thanks.

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BIRTHDAY!!!!